Winning for me looks different now.
It looks like…
Having a shower and washing my hair.
Managing a hot cup of tea at all.
Putting on a load of washing.
Having visitors without worrying about my house being spotless.
Making and eating a meal.
Getting out the house without forgetting anything.
Ottilie sleeping 2-3 hours total a day (she sleeps well at night now thankfully)
Getting more than a few hours sleep in a row myself at night.
It may not look like much to those looking in, but these are my small wins.
My little steps forward.
My hourly/daily/sometimes weekly achievements.
And they are important.
Just as my big wins before motherhood used to be.
Because when you have a little one, the small wins are big wins even if they don't feel like it.
This is winning for me right now.
And it looks different.
But every little thing that gets me closer to a day filled with more happiness and less tears from both of us is a victory.
And I choose to see it that way.
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