I can't help but feel alone.

I am noticing that a lot of those around me are feeling emotional, drained, exhausted, frustrated, and so many other emotions right now. It is actually worrying how much this pandemic has affected everyone. I suffered badly with my mental health at the start of last summer, but felt like I was then thriving towards the end of the year and beginning of this year. I have changed so many aspects in my life in a positive way, and I actually thank this dreaded virus for giving me that push to change things. I am now noticing myself slowly going back to old ways though. I was so proud of how far I had come and the changes I had made the past year, especially when it comes to my confidence, which is something I never thought would change as much as it has.

Life is challenging.

I have cried so much especially this week, that I actually question where these tears are coming from and how I have any left. I have some huge decisions to make. I have asked a couple of close friends for opinions, and given the different responses, I am now even more confused and lost. Change is good, and I know stepping outside of your comfort zone is good too, but right now, I don't feel capable of either.

I know I am not alone with these thoughts, but I can't help but feel it. For those that feel alone, I wanted to share this so that it can hopefully bring some comfort and also create awareness that life isn't always sunshine and butterflies.